So where do we go from here?.....I wish the answer was more concrete, but it's not. I wish that I had $46,000 laying around to make this all go away tomorrow, but that's obviously not an option.
I'm not going to lie, today really sucked!!! Probably the hardest day yet. But tomorrow is a new day, and I'm excited about our small family road trip we're taking to Houston tomorrow for some family time.
I still strongly believe that this is in His hands. It's hard when you're in the middle of it and you can't see the ending, how loss is a part of the plan, but I know that His plan is perfect and the path He's taking us on is being laid out in the right direction.
"But if we are to share His glory, we must also share His suffering. Yet what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory He will reveal to us later." Romans 8:17-18
I will continue to keep my eyes and my heart on Him. He is the only thing that can't be shaken in all of this and He has NOT forsaken us. It's all a part of His bigger plan.
If anything, my passion for justice has grown through this. That's something from the beginning of this lawsuit that I've desired for myself, so I can't imagine the weight of people's hearts in other places of the world that horrific injustice is happening. It makes me want to fight harder for those, especially children, that don't have a voice and never had one to begin with. I know that I have way more power than they ever will. I just can't get to my son fast enough!!!
Please pray for my previous employer. Pray that her heart will be softened and that we can both find peace and closure with this in a just way. Please pray that it will end sooner rather than later so we can move on and forward. Most importantly, pray that His glory will shine through in this matter.